kueh lapis, kibbles and other shit-coloured things

2008-11-20T02:22:00.003+08:00

but would you, you, you, or you understand? you wont, because you cant. come and try doing it yourself, with so much more at stake, and we'll see if you can deal with it. ah. but none of you can see what is at stake.

2008-09-07T23:18:00.002+08:00

emo nemo!
hahaha

to our ever keen readers (i.e. jianhong only), thanks for pretending to be interested! it is/was much appreciated.

i may write from time to time. but really i have nothing interesting to say. and i guess i'm mildly self-conscious about the things i write.

maybe i should branch out and do celeb gossip. but then i'd rather read it than write it.

or medical knowledge! HAH. i bet the average person knows more than me.

poo.

2008-08-25T02:02:00.002+08:00

just like how i dont really want to bake anymore (i might change my mind if you pay me a million bucks to do it), i dont think i want to write here anymore.

before you all think that ymw and i have fallen out, no we havent. our 6 years of friendship is strong enough to weather any storm haha. i just dont feel like writing here anymore.

but i'm feeling kind of sentimental; this blog is almost like a symbol of our friendship (ok i exaggerate, but you get what i mean), and it has had its happy, sad, glam, unglam, glorious, retarded, touching, and heartbreaking moments. even the blog name and blog design make me feel so nostalgic haha. but, i just dont feel like writing here anymore.

thanks for being my frind all these years ymw, i'm looking forward to many more years of frindship! i know i can count on you; you are, up till now, probably the only person who thinks that i'm funny. i'm so touched! (and i am, up till now, probably one of the 10 million people who think that you're their smartest friend.)

and thank YOU for reading my useless ramblings all these years, even if you only came because of ymw haha. i used to write more, but if you've watched this blog grow, you'd probably have noticed that i am almost, finally, finally, out of words. we had so much to talk about. so so much.

i might change my mind, and come back to writing here one day. or write here once in a while, who knows. i'll probably find somewhere else to write (people change, feelings change, things change, and blogs change.), ask me if you still want to read my boring stuff. i guess no one will miss this blog much (since ymw and i are such boring people sniff. but we'll probably leave this blog up just for memory's sake. and you know what a silly sentimental idiot i am. and ymw might still continue writing here, who knows?), after all this is what we do best isnt it.. no more entries? no big deal, move on, find another blog to read.

well, if you ever decide to, and still want to, indulge in some nostalgia, the blog and memories will still be here.

我们曾经那么精采
我们曾经那么期待
最后你把回忆还我
要我好好过

我们最后这么遗憾
我们最后这么无关
时时刻刻每个现在
都在嘲笑我

2008-08-22T20:21:00.002+08:00

it's just one more day, but i feel as if i'm going to crumble any minute now. i cant do it, i'm so tired. so so tired. tired of fighting, tired of studying. so so tired.

2008-08-16T00:03:00.001+08:00

i think jason mraz is one of the very very few singers who sound REALLY good live. might be even better than studio.

2008-08-04T23:44:00.000+08:00

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGWTF BIRD.

2 months.

2008-08-01T22:07:00.009+08:00

many things can change in two months. or a month. or a day. even things which you believed/really hope to believe were once very special and real. and not only things, people can change too. how ironic, that sometimes we can actually say some things, and the next moment these things may not matter much to some of us anymore. must that always happen?

2008-07-30T18:36:00.001+08:00

wtf bird.

jay chou <3

2008-07-27T02:54:00.000+08:00

look at that sad face. and pained voice. omg. heartbreaking.

2008-07-23T18:35:00.002+08:00

have you ever felt that you've tried your best to give all you can, yet others dont want it. and even though you still are willing to give, you get so afraid, so tired, because they dont want it anyway. and it'll all go unwanted and forgotten.

2008-07-20T23:52:00.001+08:00

再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎

我们 (时时刻刻) - 五月天

2008-07-15T22:58:00.006+08:00

aiya i really like mayday.

我
为何要存在
为何要感慨
为何颤抖停不下来

你
为何要推翻
为何要离开
为何给我这个答案

我们曾经那么精采
我们曾经那么期待
最后你把回忆还我
要我好好过

你
话中的计算
准确的伤害
像精心打造的对白

我
划开了动脉
也许不醒来
至少昨天无法毁坏

我们曾经那么精采
我们曾经那么期待
最后你把回忆还我
要我好好过

我们最后这么遗憾
我们最后这么无关
时时刻刻每个现在
都在嘲笑我

ahhh. mayday rocks. amazing lyrics and songs.

on a side note, i found this while googling the lyrics. this is why chinese lyrics work so much better. have a good laugh anyway, even though it's not supposed to be funny haha.

2008-07-15T00:31:00.003+08:00

yay ymw my frinnnnnd is back :) one of the very few who will even talk to me HAHA.

there were many many many things i wanted to tell you today. everyday, actually.

2008-07-06T23:44:00.001+08:00

my toe hurts. and so does it that feels.

2008-07-01T23:50:00.003+08:00

according to my very old interactive johari window, i'm actually supposed to be "cheerful".

i'd rather be superman. or superbird. but superman is not all-powerful anyway.

2008-06-26T18:28:00.000+08:00

为什么拯救地球　是那么容易　
为什么束手无策啊　我和你的爱情
为什么拯救地球　终于完美结局　
为什么　我只能够　眼看着爱燃烧成　灰烬

i once threw a coin into a swimming pool to make a wish.

超人

2008-06-23T23:58:00.006+08:00

世界如果被残酷攻击
只要给我一个电话亭
把内裤当外衣
如果你能够开心
展开披风　带你飞行

谁赐予我一身　无助的能力
神也不能阻挡　你想离开的心

为什么拯救地球　是那么容易　
为什么束手无策啊　我和你的爱情
为什么我能飞天　也能够遁地　
为什么我却没办法　长驱直入你的心

曾经你赞美我手臂
逛街多能提　日日夜夜贴身保护你
最凶狠的怪兽　也不能与我为敌
那为何害怕你的泪滴

我给了我这一幕　难堪的结局
谁要这样超人　连自己也救不起

为什么拯救地球　是那么容易　
为什么束手无策啊　我和你的爱情
为什么拯救地球　终于完美结局　
为什么　我只能够　眼看着爱燃烧成　灰烬

世界如果被残酷攻击　谁来接手我的超能力

The Velveteen Rabbit

2008-06-19T21:14:00.003+08:00

i just read my november 17 2007 entry again. i like it. because it is simple yet profound. and it hits you hard. real hard. kind of bittersweet.

When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real.

You become. It takes a long time.

2008-06-15T15:41:00.008+08:00

the sun is really nice today. i could be out swimming. or shopping. GSS would probably be over in a months' time, either that or nothing good will be left on the shelves. i could've had yummy dimsum on friday. i could be out spending time with friends, eating, shopping, running, swimming, cycling or just doing any random thing. i could be doing a thousand and one things next week, my LAST WEEK of holidays, everything except staying at home doing nothing (which is really the last thing i'll ever want to do at this point of time). and after a week of having fun at home, it'll be back to the wards. only this time i'll be limping around. sounds like great fun already.

fine, i'm just whining. i was clumsy. does it even matter WHY?

2008-06-11T18:39:00.003+08:00

:(

i quite miss thailand. i miss everything.

And through timeless words and priceless pictures
We’ll fly like birds not of this earth
And tides they turn and hearts disfigure
But that’s no concern when we’re wounded together
And we tore our dresses and stained our shirts

But it’s nice today, oh the wait was so worth it

2008-05-30T23:01:00.004+08:00

the paeds kit is quite cute i really cant wait for our paeds posting omg.

on a side note, jason mraz sounds quite good live.

A Beautiful Mess - Jason Mraz

You’ve got the best of both worlds
You’re the kind of girl who can take down a man
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you’re needy
Humble but you’re greedy
Based on your body language
You shouted cursive I’ve been reading
Your style is quite selective
Though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
That this is just what happiness is

Hey, what a beautiful mess this is
It’s like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they’re quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There’s no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words aren't paraphrasing this relationship we’re staging

And what a beautiful mess this is
It’s like, picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
The kind and courteous is a life I’ve heard
But it’s nice to say that we played in the dirt
Cause here, here we are, here we are

We're still here

What a beautiful mess this is
It’s like taking a guess when the only answer is yes

And through timeless words in priceless pictures
We’ll fly like birds not of this earth
And tides they turn and hearts disfigure
But that’s no concern when we’re wounded together

And we tore our dresses and stained our shirts
But it’s nice today, oh the wait was so worth it

2008-05-22T22:24:00.009+08:00

i remember when i first heard this song i didnt like it much. but it grew on me. i love jay chou's latest album, for many reasons actually. i will be very sad when he retires soon because of his whatever heart condition.

彩虹

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍

就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

i think jay chou is a genius.

heart.

the undomestic goddesses.

2008-04-07T00:06:00.003+08:00

bird/ believes. says:
ok
bird/ believes. says:
discussion
bird/ believes. says:
what to do on tues lehhhh
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
wahhh bird-initiated!
- says:
we have to help bird quit her addiction
- says:
she needs her friends now
- says:
haha
bird/ believes. says:
.....
ying says:
OMG does anyone have a WII????
bird/ believes. says:
what
bird/ believes. says:
if i didnt initiate it we'll never do anything!
- says:
nope
bird/ believes. says:
what's with the obsession over wii
bird/ believes. says:
is it really v fun!
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
YES
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
bungee buddies!
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
(yes to is it very fun. no to does anyone have a wii)
ying says:
OH ):
bird/ believes. says:
ok
bird/ believes. says:
you guys go find a wii thing
bird/ believes. says:
and we will play on tues
bird/ believes. says:
hAHAHAH
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
-_-
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
okay we can buy whatever we need and i'll persuade my parents not to flip after we destroy my kitchen
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
at worst we'll get kicked out and can go wander around ECP
ying says:
if someone has like 200-300 bucks to spare i can get us a wii console
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
wow it's that cheap?
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
aiyah why don't you trick your little sister into buying one
- says:
hahaha
ying says:
she's really not as gullible as little sisters should be ):
ying says:
alright so HOWWWW
ying says:
are we going to bake?
ying says:
what are we going to bake?
ying says:
ingredients should be easy enough to buy. but trays and stuff????????????
- says:
can we jus use aluminum foil?? we should start with something simple, like cookies??

~the fallen blood shall calm her sores has left the conversation.

ying says:
mmm yess prob a good idea
ying says:
apple crumble is supposed to be easy

~the fallen blood shall calm her sores has been added to the conversation.

- says:
alright then. we will jus buy those flour with boxes that have lotsa insturctions
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
ahaha seriously
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
okay sure
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
er do we have a backup plan?
ying says:
huhh those are cheating ones!
ying says:
you basically add eggs stir and whack it in the oven
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
orh okay
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
not good
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
we must include the possibility of failure so it's more exciting
ying says:
spoken like a true singaporean jon!
ying says:
hahahha
ying says:
WHERE HAS ZHANG HUI TING GONE
- says:
so thats bird's chinese name.
ying says:
nono marlom actually
ying says:
haha
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
?!
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
i thought he was something zhi wei
- says:
hahaha
ying says:
i'm joking.
ying says:
i honestly donm't know what marlom's chinese name is
- says:
so we set on baking???
- says:
is it ok with you, jon?? since we are crashing yours
- says:
ying, jon asked if you have a whisk
bird/ believes. says:
haha
bird/ believes. says:
what is a whisk?
bird/ believes. says:
i am ehre!
bird/ believes. says:
here!

~the fallen blood shall calm her sores has left the conversation.

- says:
huiting, where did u go..
- says:
the thing u use to beat the eggs, i think
bird/ believes. says:
hahaha
bird/ believes. says:
er
bird/ believes. says:
ok i have cupcake recipes if you want
bird/ believes. says:
ahahahahahah
bird/ believes. says:
and i have nothing at all
bird/ believes. says:
i dont know how to bake

~the fallen blood shall calm her sores has been added to the conversation.

ying says:
OMG even jh KNOWS what a whisk is
ying says:
BIRD tsk shame on you
bird/ believes. says:
what's wrong with your stupid connection jon
bird/ believes. says:
bird/ believes. says:
ok
bird/ believes. says:
i am a noob
bird/ believes. says:
dont marry me
ying says:
i don't have one. but i have a fork and we can use jon's muscly arms
ying says:
makeshift whisk
bird/ believes. says:
HAHAHAH
bird/ believes. says:
OMG
bird/ believes. says:
that was funny!
bird/ believes. says:
hahahahahaahahahah
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
what!
- says:
sounds gd
- says:
ahaha
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
how insulting, bird
bird/ believes. says:
hahahaha
bird/ believes. says:
HAHAHAHEHEHEHEAHAHHAAH
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
bird go dig around your house for a whisk
ying says:
ok guys we must train bird. then we can marry her off
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
we could just get her a really effeminate guy who can cook and likes touch ruggers in warpaint
the fallen blood shall calm her sores says:
hm actually any guy who plays the sims would probably fit that description

-CENSORED-

~the fallen blood shall calm her sores has left the conversation.

ok jon says he's giving up on his msn tonight
bird/ believes. says:
ahahahah

-CENSORED-

ying says:
eh so tues bake ahh!
ying says:
everyone - since you are all free now and don't need to mug like me
ying says:
go and find nice cookie recipes
ying says:
k
bird/ believes. says:
ya ok!
ying says:
then we will decide which is the cheapest
ying says:
!! hahaha
bird/ believes. says:
but we need to settle logistics
bird/ believes. says:
hahaha
bird/ believes. says:
cookies
bird/ believes. says:
HAHA
bird/ believes. says:
let's try sthreally outrageous
ying says:
like what - wasabi coconut raspberry cookies?
ying says:
that's as outrageous as i can think of
ying says:
ahha
ying says:
i think we only really need an oven right. and mixing bowl. and measuring cup
ying says:
then we can meet and buy all the liao
bird/ believes. says:
yay man
bird/ believes. says:
so exciting
bird/ believes. says:
and get a wii thing
- says:
tue afternoon ya?
- says:
i m messaging jon about location and time

HOW WILL IT END???????????

:(

2008-03-26T12:57:00.003+08:00

http://www.ninetynineballoons.com/

sigh, so much to do, so little time. after my exams i will go read his blog. a birthday cake every day he lived, and 99 balloons. so beautiful, but so sad :(

2008-03-25T15:10:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAH!

so obviously xxx company trains their employees to spell out details using place names.
so i was supposed to give my email address:

me: ...... m-e-i
lady: ok, malaysia, england, india
me: w-o-n-g
lady: washington, *very pregnant pause* orange, norway, germany?
me: um yeah. that's right. at gmail.

HAHAHAAHHA
ok i know it's not very nice to laugh at her. but surely she should have trained hard enough. i mean 'o' isn't that exotic a letter. she managed 'y' (i can't remember what she said for 'y' but it was something credible) for goodness sake.

2008-03-21T15:32:00.003+08:00

what does good friday mean to me? or easter?

well i guess it is a holiday, even though most of it is spent on mugging (or attempting to mug). but i'm still thankful.

2008-03-09T00:17:00.002+08:00

connie always makes me cry. omg i love her. <3

2008-02-24T20:52:00.002+08:00

my arms are aching, my legs are aching, my abdominal muscles are aching, and my butt is aching! all this from just 2 hours of touch rug.

i am so unfit!

2008-02-19T22:12:00.002+08:00

chopin has become one of my favourite romantic composers (after spending hours watching youtube videos!) and i really really want to watch "the pianist" one day OMG.

goodbye colin

2008-02-12T18:40:00.001+08:00

yesterday was our last pharm prac FOREVER AND EVERRR (unless i do pharm next year)

was a good one. (colin is what we once christened our guinea pig ileum)
seen and heard in the lab -
[it is, of course, funnier if you remember that T and R are 2 towering british boys.]

R: let's nettle this bad boy!

we got a particularly gross ileum filled with god knows what for the prac,
me: ARGHHH!!! i've got guinea pig shit all over my fingers!
T+R: awwwwww
10seconds later..
me: ARGHHH!! i've got guinea pig shit all over my fingers and it's DRIED UP!!!
T+R: awwwww

when i had to re-stitch the disgusting gut for the 5th time,
me: i can't take this anymore. if it breaks again, you guys can sew it!
R: oh but you sew beautifully...

when i told K about how awful our gut was,
K: oh yeahh we got that the last time! we thought we might have got a bit of rectum!

as T proceded to knock over all the chemicals,
R: you have the finesse of an elephant!

when the experiment didn't go as planned and i uncovered an error we made earlier,
R: oh ym you've opened a can of worms!
me: hmmm. i feel like having some gummy worms.
T: OHHH!! wouldn't it be amazing if you could get gummy worms in a can!
R: yeahh! then it'd be like opening a can of (gummy) worms!! yeahh!!
T: we should market this!
.................... (this of course ended up with us making a trip down to the market to get gummy worms.)

an unusual day.

2008-02-09T00:30:00.000+08:00

i felt awful when i got up today. 5hours of sleep - just NOT enough.

neuro lecture was boring. path prac was hilarious. cath and i had a discussion about costume ideas for 'P for Party' - peterpan, peanut, penguin, partypopper, panda, prostitute, pizza, parma ham, poo, poodle, pimple (HAHAH can you imagine that!) can't remember what else.

so nats and i left complaining about how hungry we were and then right smack in front of us this guy appeared and he was giving out FREE POPCORN! how amazing is that! it was publicity for some company - i don't know, i was eating the popcorn not looking at the packaging. seriously, next time i will complain about not eating sushi. *fingers crossed*

then path lecture we had this 'sex-crazed' lecturer. she did like a 10min intro before beginning and managed to slip in like 4 sexual innuendos. like !!??!! 5 min into the actual content of the lecture....
*DIIUUUU!! DIUUUU!!* [it sounded like that. really]
"Attention, attention, a fire has been detected in the building. Please be prepared to evacuate. Attention attention........"

HAHAHAHA so we got to go back early :D

blind date(s)!

2008-02-06T07:39:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHHAHA omg. it was really quite funny.

so bird, i didn't bribe to get someone 'buff' or 'tall' or anything. leave it entirely up to chance :/

so anw, mon - everyone gets their blind date forms... i have NOTHING in my pigeonhole. no blue/green/pink forms. NOTHING. (straight guys fill in blue ones, straight girls fill in pink, gays fill in green. i knoW!!! cam is how open right, they even consider gays. spore must learn) so i'm like OH SHIT wth....
look for my college RAG rep and she says she's definitely seen my date's form and maybe it's stuck somewhere and she'll definitely get it to me before my date tmr.
then this guy rd adds me on facebook so i presume he must be my blind date.

tues (day of said date)
still no form in pigeonhole (!!!!!)
but i get a text from vk who's from rd's college saying - oh i hear you're going out with him tonight!
so okkkk that means he's my blind date right.
our RAG rep emails me at 6pm to say she can't find my date's form but she's found out who my date is. he's rS (!) not rD.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
confusion. she calls the main rag guy and they have no idea what's gone wrong. so i'm supposd to meet both guys!
so at this point, it's like 730pm, RS (who also didn't get a form) has no idea he has a date or where to meet me. RD will be meeting me at 8 somewhere, completely unaware that he's about to go on a triple date (apparently you can request threesomes but NO i didn't)
i text RS and luckily he replies to say yes he'll meet me later and no he doesn't mind a triple date...

so i meet RD first and we have a good chat for about an hour or so over some good dessert.
then we head over to spoons to meet RS who is there with 3 other friends. and luckily luckily out of FIVE guys, there was ONE hot one. but he was one of my date's friends :/ hahah another of RS's friends was in master and commander with russel crowe! how cool is that! anw RS and his friends were really funny and everything so phew! went next to emma bar cos drinks are cheap and we just kind of chilled and chatted for maybe another hour or so? RD leaves cos he's got a pancake party.. hang around a bit more and then the guys say they want to go to cindies. i say nahh i probably won't (cos wv wasn't going and really i don't want to go with like 4 guys i just met right!) and the hot one (!! hahah) tries convincing me. but no i have strong willpower!

hahaha that said, both my dates were not all that ermm good-looking. but they were taller than me! now that's what i look for! hahaahahaah (don't hold me to it though)

2008-01-30T00:04:00.000+08:00

check out the colours.

on a side note,

eeyore is too cute, i heart eeyore.

2008-01-25T00:24:00.001+08:00

looks like i am well on my way to developing colorectal cancer.

jay chou concert!

2008-01-20T01:21:00.000+08:00

it was quite good! he didnt sound too bad singing live and he's friendlier now haha.
he always sings an jing. not that i'm complaining, i love it!

this is what we watched OMG. check out that piano.

安静 - 周杰伦

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道你没有舍不得

你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开

你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多我会一直好好过

你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你

a real classic :)

2008-01-11T00:10:00.000+08:00

' says:
at least that is what think. but as u know, i m definitely not the best example of guys.

ying says:
*coughcoughGAYcoughcough*

' says:
a gay friend of mine just described me as a closet gay

' says:
which i m extremely offended

ying says:
HAHAHA you made me spit out water laughing

ying says:
AHHAHAHAHAHh

' says:
hahha

' says:
i must claim that i still do prefer breast over balls.

ying says:
i can't believe you just said that

ying says:
that is. so. graphic

ying says:
ugh ugh ugh

ying says:
hahaha

' says:
hey, this is me-HONEST

' says:
but i must say that i find gay's personality alot more interesting than normal guys

ying says:
*coughcoughGAYYYcoughcough*

' says:
hey

' says:
if that line is like saved in your comp, i m sure it will be saved under j-

' says:
and i dislike that thought

ying says:
i'm going to blog it

ying says:
hahahaha

2008-01-05T17:15:00.000+08:00

i almost died laughing at lovely complex!!! HAHHAHHA

he asks,
"so what do you love about him?"

she replies,
"he has a huge pot belly and his face is really oily.... and his eyes look like a criminal's and they're really gross."

he says,
"... those are the parts you don't like about him, aren't they?"

she replies,
"those are what i like about him."

he comments,
"you must be a very unusual person."

she says,
"have you fallen in love with me?"

he says,
"this is rather scary. like being stabbed."

of course, it loses something with subbing. but still!! hhahahhah

the darjeeling limited

2008-01-03T21:02:00.001+08:00

to watch or not to watch?

AYYYY decisions decisions.

this song has already looped like 170 times on my itunes. and it's still looping.

2007-12-29T13:59:00.000+08:00

So Close - Jon McLaughlin

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming though we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

2007-12-28T14:18:00.000+08:00

on whether a certain male celebrity has a facial palsy:

bigQ says, "oh i don't think so! both of his lips go up when he smiles what."

-at this point i'm about to pass out from laughing, trying to imagine this so-called normal smile-

she says,"what! what! what's so funny!"

i say, "surely you mean both corners of his lips."

Facebook asks me what i am.

2007-12-26T22:19:00.000+08:00

Elizabeth is... a bird? a girl? old? a pink pig? delicate? chocolate? jay chou? stupid? a cute small adorable kid? chinese? a med student with no life? a grand piano? insane? schizophrenic? a panadol? a bug? a campylobacter? not studying? a pink cupcake? wasting time? a chocolate heart? a book? a tapeworm? black? a black dress? a black top? a black skirt? A BLACK BIRD?! too bored?

maybe.

2007-12-25T23:44:00.000+08:00

in the avalanche of xmas texts, comes:

"may you and all love ones have a blessed christmas and a wonderful year ahead!

Coach, N-"

which led me to wonder.

did he pick out all the softballers in his phonebook and text each one individually? (which would actually be really sweet)

or is he known as coach to EVERYBODY in his phonebook (which would actually be really weird)

my dad says i'm being mean and thinking the worst of everyone around me.

2007-12-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

does the christmas sms jam stretch that long?

2007-12-24T16:03:00.000+08:00

finally sick! and home alone. pah, how miserable. want food, need food. very sad!

merry christmas!

why we love texting S.K.O.A.

2007-12-24T12:27:00.000+08:00

she says,
"so aft christmas? i'm still filling a beet ill from cambodia"

i say,
"HAHA! seen my post on your facebook! text me when you want to hang out... i'm v unhappening anw haha"

she says,
"haha you hermeet. we are the minest ppl alive man :D"

i say,
"aiyoh donch anyhow group us together! but how was cambodia anw?"

she says,
"observed an op for -insert medic-y stuff-. coolness. oh and during r&r we went to try weed pizza"

i say,
"GEEK. what did it taste like!"
..........

she says,
"goodnight! srip tight"

i say,
"hahaha you made me spit out water!!! swit drims x"

-------
she says,
"oh ym i just saw yest's msg again and it should be GIK not geek"

i say,
"HAHAHAHAH yeah and you ate wid pih-zza right. haha"

2007-12-20T09:23:00.000+08:00

mum says:
" 'Food Prices Going Up Next Month'. (pause) hmmm we better eat everything we can now."
~

T says:
i've applied for OSCA and OCEP! but i don't think i'll get in
ying says:
how so?
T says:
they only have skinny people in their photos on the website
~

bird says:
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG x100000000
(i should have counted how many you said)

creepy old men

2007-12-18T11:11:00.000+08:00

the uncle at occ says,
"wah, ger, i bet you just came back from overseas right?"

i say,
"oh um yah... how did you know?"

uncle,
"ohhhh you look like you did... must be uk right?"

i say,
"oh gee wow er i didn't know you could 'look' it."

2007-12-18T01:11:00.000+08:00

wouldn't it be nice if we had all the time in the world to just sit. and stare into nothing. and waste as much time as we want to.

i need to find things to do. maybe all i need for christmas is a book voucher. with unlimited value. then i can buy all the books i want. there are so many books out there i want to read, but i never get down to buying them. and then there's the agatha christie one which is sitting on my shelf waiting for me to pick it up. but somehow all i really want to do now is just to sit. and stare. and waste all my time.

why is there no house season 2 online?!?!?!!!

2007-12-18T00:15:00.000+08:00

on his gorgeous red elmo bag -

jt: "it's a chick magnet."

2007-12-15T15:13:00.000+08:00

you know how there are some days where you dont feel like doing anything even though you do have things to do? (mugging not included) i've been getting that alot. it's particularly bad today, i havent done anything for 3 hours since i woke up!

on a side note, i should've picked up the organ instead. i'd get a full body workout while playing the organ, as ymw pointed out haha.

i need a bowel transplant!

and i really like this song.

why we love msn

2007-12-14T00:08:00.000+08:00

on the difference between parts of UK-

T says:
ironically, you're the person from uni who's the farthest away and the one i speak to the most
ying says:
that's cos in singapore we use technology! hahahha
T says:
obviously Manchester and Singapore are the most advanced

on music -

bird/ believes. why do you sing with me at all? says:
i like james morrison!
ying says:
who is james morrison!
bird/ believes. why do you sing with me at all? says:
OMG?!
bird/ believes. why do you sing with me at all? says:
YMW?!
bird/ believes. why do you sing with me at all? says:
the guy who sang the pieces dont fit anymore
ying says:
sorry babe
ying says:
my music knowledge only extends as far as gimme more
bird/ believes. why do you sing with me at all? says:
what
bird/ believes. why do you sing with me at all? says:
is gimme more?!
ying says:
OH EM GEEEEE
ying says:
how can you not know gimme more!!!!
ying says:
it's britney bitch!
bird/ believes. why do you sing with me at all? says:
OH
bird/ believes. why do you sing with me at all? says:
oopss
bird/ believes. why do you sing with me at all? says:
i did it again
ying says:
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAAH
bird/ believes. why do you sing with me at all? says:
i bought his cd for like 8 bucks. parallel import from china. and guess what. the lyrics came in like, CHINESE.
ying says:
HAHAH at least you didn't play the cd and hear 'james morrison' singing in chinese
ying says:
that would be SOOOO FUNNYYYY
bird/ believes. why do you sing with me at all? says:
HAHAH
bird/ believes. why do you sing with me at all? says:
oh man
bird/ believes. why do you sing with me at all? says:
i would've died seriously

2007-12-08T15:30:00.000+08:00

the airport auntie says:
"aiyoh liddat jialat arrhh!"

it's good to be home :)

2007-12-06T20:28:00.000+08:00

and so the cardiac surgeon said,
"oh second year medical students! wonderful! so you're midway through the depersonalisation process eh??"

little things like that keep me so encouraged.

2007-11-17T14:42:00.000+08:00

"Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real."

"Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit.

"Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real you don't mind being hurt."

"Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit by bit?"

"It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in your joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."

- The Velveteen Rabbit

i've had my current desktop wallpaper for about 2 months already. it's nowhere near the pretty beautiful soothing scenery kind, but it's real. i think, and i hope. and i dont intend to change it anytime soon.

2007-11-13T02:00:00.001+08:00

interestingly, i actually ate 2 servings of vegetables today.

i hate school. i hate mugging.

2007-11-11T21:06:00.002+08:00

i've lost the motivation to mug, somehow. i dont know if it's because of the unattractiveness of the mugging content itself, or if it's just me and my laziness. i cant even imagine how i survived A levels, but i suspect i must've been more of a muggertoad then. and the desire to want to do well has disappeared since med school started. most of the time i'd just tell myself that i just need to study enough to pass. and i am actually HAPPY to just make the mark. while everyone else is working so so hard because they want to do well. oh sigh. i am destined for a life of mediocrity!

and guess what, i dont even feel sad saying that..!

argh!!

(and i cant even be bothered to get a new flooble chatbox thingy. it just died on us, that silly thing.)

why then, am i still holding on? because i choose to. and i want to. because, i want to believe that the result will be worth it.

2007-11-10T17:20:00.000+08:00

i finally got the jay chou cd! it's not bad really, though it's quite evident that he has become more mainstream. lost his style la. there's no more "this is a jay chou song" kind of feeling on first listen. but they do sound better after a few listens. i still like!

我不配 - 周杰倫

这街上太拥挤　太多人有秘密　玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪　在还原那场雨　这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿　又斑驳了几句　剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅　隔遥远的距离　感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你　你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉　已经不对　我努力在挽回
一些些　应该体贴的感觉　我没给
你嘟嘴　许的愿望很卑微　在妥协
是我忽略　你不过要人陪

这感觉　已经不对　我最后才了解
一页页　不忍翻阅的情节　你好累
你默背　为我掉过几次泪　多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪　你的美　我不配

The Way I Am - Ingrid Michaelson

If you were falling, then I would catch you
You need a light, I'd find a match

Cos I love the way you say good morning
And you take me the way I am

If you are chilly, here take my sweater
Your head is aching, I'll make it better

Cos I love the way you call me baby
And you take me the way I am

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair
Sew on patches to all you tear

Cos I love you more than I could ever promise
And you take me the way I am
You take me the way I am
You take me the way I am

2007-10-26T06:31:00.000+08:00

aiyah i'm lazy to update lar! and there's nothing exciting happening! honest!
errrrrrrrrrrr
today my supervisor treated me to dinner.
i have done one essay this term
my new room is nice.
my angmoh friends like to eat rendang
i have found a super duper good looking eyecandy. wahahahhaha.
my bedder is lazy and changes sheets once every two weeks.
we found the babbage baguette shop! it's like heaven when you walk in :D :D
i want sashimi :(((((((
i'm going to oxford next weekend.

ok i'll think of more exciting things next time. i will i will!

2007-10-20T18:21:00.000+08:00

ymw! update us on your happening life in cambridge! my life is too boring.. :(

i've been trying to study. trying is the word. but i really really hate mugging. i'd gladly spend 4 hours online clicking on nothing in particular, but just 10 minutes of looking at my notes is enough to send me running to my bed. whyyyyy...! why am i so unmotivated. i cant believe myself omg.

weilin came to nus to visit yesterday and i had dinner, for the very first time (ok, i'm a loser. i havent been to megabytes since it opened haha), at megabytes. the food is not bad i guess, good enough for those prices. it's really great fun hanging out with weilin, she's so crazy and funny and random. she was carrying her rgs orientation bag (haha like, omg! i cant even remember what happened to mine) cos it was the only bag she could find at home. and she still eats so slowly. and she is still MBTI queen.

oh man, i remember that stew thingy. with many many many blobs of potatoes which i really liked. this sense of nostalgia just overwhelms me whenever i look at my 403 photos. those days. those really really wonderful times.

and even though we've all drifted apart, both physically or otherwise, these friendships will always remain. :)

1 Corinthians 13:4-13

2007-10-07T00:42:00.000+08:00

i've always liked this passage from the Bible. always have thought it was beautiful. it still is.

"Love is patient, Love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil
But rejoices with the truth.

It always protects,
Always trusts,
Always hopes,
Always perseveres.

Love never fails.

But where there are prophecies, they will cease;
Where there are tongues, they will be stilled;
Where there is knowlegde, it will pass away.
For we know in part and we prophesy in part,
But when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.
When I was a child, I talked like a child,
I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child.
When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.
Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror;
Then we shall see face to face.
Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain:
Faith, Hope and Love.

But the greatest of these is Love."

and now when i read it, i suddenly understand it so much better. i want to believe that love conquers all. because You, and you, are love.

2007-10-05T19:02:00.000+08:00

the sky was so nicely blue and cloudless today. i really wish it'd be so beautiful everyday.

if i asked You to do it for me, would You?

medical notes!

2007-09-23T20:52:00.000+08:00

Confucius say, "Man who push piano down mine shaft, get A flat minor." (i found this on fb. have i already said that i love the confucius say application?)

i must say that i really enjoyed the concert. both as part of the audience and as a performer. even though the place wasnt exactly large, the atmosphere was really cosy. and it's always nice performing for the people who matter to me. :) it was really alot of fun.. all the practices, rehearsals and the final thing. nus medicine is full of overachievers, as ymw said!

thank you kaiping for taking the initiative to come up with the concert, it was quite a success! and you were really good, the best pianist last night!

thank you sarabird, ymw, steph, yanling, peilin, xinrong, waijia, milton, wings, lizhen and everyone else who were there, i hope you guys enjoyed the concert as much as we enjoyed performing for you :)

and thank you cheow, for asking me to accompany you. erhu king, you were too good! totally owned rjxx girl, as i've already said. it was seriously great fun :)

Give Them All To Jesus

2007-09-16T14:27:00.000+08:00

Are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows?
Are you tired of spinning round and round?
Wrap up all those shattered dreams of your life
And at the feet of Jesus, lay them down.

Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus
Shattered dreams, wounded hearts, and broken toys.
Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus
And He will turn your sorrow into joy.

He never said you'd only see sunshine,
He never said there'd be no rain.
He only promised a heart full of singing
About the very thing that once brought pain.

Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus
Shattered dreams, wounded hearts, and broken toys.
Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus
And He will turn your sorrow into joy.

we were singing this in church today, (i think i might've mentioned this before but i cant remember la) and i really like this song. both the lyrics and the melody.

2007-09-01T20:20:00.000+08:00

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blackle.com

check this out! i was just talking to candice and she told me abt random geeky stuff. haha and i think blackle.com is really quite nicely black. except that it's abit hard to read the words.

and for all you geeks out there:

http://scholar.google.com

on a side note, i was sorting out vanessa's songs (all those i koped from her external hard drive long LONG ago) and she really has some gems. alas, i am too lazy to continue and so i shall leave them for now.

i just finished reading the book on how to have a meaningful quiet time which wai jia bought to pass around the prayer group, and there were a few parts which really struck me. i need to stop spending time thinking about things. especially when people dont want to talk about them, and they very obviously will not resolve by themselves. which means things i cannot do much about. or can i?

start studying, bird.

2007-08-29T02:47:00.001+08:00

i am so very extremely upset that i have nothing to say. there's no point in saying anything anyway.

this must be the stupidest i've ever been in my entire life. i dont think i can ever find it in me to forget any of this.

2007-08-28T23:36:00.001+08:00

i cant believe i just spent 2 hrs staring into NOTHING. OMG wtf.

get a grip, bird. no one cares, why should you?

2007-08-18T21:30:00.000+08:00

so school has finally started. it's only been a week and i'm already tired. physically and emotionally. it's not that i dont enjoy school; friends really make it more bearable. that said, school is not UNbearable, but i need to get into the cycle again. the (much needed) 3 month break has really slowed me down alot, and i am very much still in the holiday mood.. -.-

i havent felt genuinely happy in a very long time. i cant pinpoint a particular reason, but i have a few in mind.

the world would be a very very sad place without music.

scrapbook mania.

2007-07-31T23:18:00.001+08:00

today i went to a scrapbook shop in plaza singapura! they've got loads of stuff there, and i had to exercise alot of self control. (since i am trying to save money hurhurhurrr) but i couldnt resist, and i bought damn cute stickers and ribbons!

i shall make scrapbooks for every holiday i go for. if i even go for anymore holidays. i am so sad that school is starting.

and my latest addiction.

换季 - 金莎

是泪滴结束每段恋情
要时间忘记
想忘记
其实埋藏在心里

雨滴结束每个冬季
晒不干过去就面对你
喜怒哀乐的回忆

听天空晴朗开始好天情
别再犹豫
让心情也天情

失恋的人就换季
脱下过期爱情
突醒的眼里看见发亮的自己
哦多美丽

受伤的人就换季
春夏秋冬轮替
总有你的美景等待下一季
下一次天情

happy birthday mak :)

2007-07-29T00:15:00.000+08:00

i just got back from kandy's birthday party, and i met the girls for the first time since dunno when! it never occurred to me how much i really missed all of them, and i enjoyed talking to them even though we havent seen each other for so long. and it freaked me out abit when whui mentioned something which is actually bothering me right now. she knew nothing about it, but the first name she mentioned just totally caught me off guard. all these things, they must happen for a reason.

i'm doing my europe scrapbook now, and it is not going to be easy.

but right now all i really need to say is i love you girls. rgs was easily one of the best periods of my life. :)

2007-07-27T00:26:00.000+08:00

i love wuyuetian! i know i've said this many many times, but i think they've got the best lyrics on earth. love the metaphors, the analogies, and how the way they just seem to be so so heartbreakingly real. so there you go, my all time fave.

also, the mv is quite sad.

超人 - 五月天

曲︰冠佑／阿信
詞︰阿信
編︰五月天

世界如果被殘酷攻擊
只要給我一個電話亭
把內褲當外衣　如果你能夠開心
展開披風　帶你飛行

誰賜予我這一身　無助的能力
神也不能阻擋　你想離開的心

為什麼拯救地球　是那麼容易
為什麼束手無策啊　我和你的愛情
為什麼我能飛天　也能夠遁地
為什麼我卻沒辦法　長驅直入你的心

曾經你讚美我手臂　逛街多能提
日日夜夜貼身保護你
最凶狠的怪獸　也不能與我為敵
那為何害怕你的淚滴

我給了我這一幕　難堪的結局
誰要這樣超人　連自己也救不起

為什麼拯救地球　是那麼容易
為什麼束手無策啊　我和你的愛情
為什麼我能飛天　也能夠遁地
為什麼我卻沒辦法　長驅直入你的心

為什麼拯救地球　是那麼容易
為什麼束手無策啊　我和你的愛情
為什麼拯救地球　終於完美結局
為什麼我只能夠　眼看著愛燃燒成　灰燼

世界如果被殘酷攻擊
誰來接手我的超能力

2007-07-25T23:04:00.001+08:00

this is quite very upsetting. i can feel the fever coming, and i dont want all my plans ruined. and i think it's silly how i think this fever came about. piece of shit.

i absolutely dislike the mentality of leaving things unfinished. or doing things half-heartedly. and it's not very nice to start something and just disappear, leaving others to wonder what the hell you were actually trying to do.

sometimes, i think i think too much.

Every Little Thing - Dishwalla

2007-07-21T03:18:00.000+08:00

Let me in
To see you in the morning light
To get me on and all along the tears they come
See all come
I want you to believe in life
But I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away

Will you find out who you are too late to change?

I wish I could be
Every little thing you wanted
All the time
I wish I could be
Every little thing you wanted
All the time
Some times

Lift me up
Just lift me up don't make a sound
And let me hold you up before you hit the ground
See all come
You say you're alright
But I get the strangest feeling
That you've gone away

And will you find out who you are too late to change?

I wish I could be
Every little thing you wanted
All the time
I wish I could be
Every little thing you wanted
All the time
Some times

Don't give me up
Don't give me up tonight
Or soon nothing will be right at all
Salvation

Will you find out who you are too late to change?

I wish I could be
Every little thing you wanted

2007-07-21T01:12:00.000+08:00

ok since sarabird has requested, i'll blog about my birthday! haha

i must say that ymw and sarabird are a cunning bunch, and it was quite a pleasant surprise. thank you babes, i love you! and to everyone who turned up, i love you guys just as much :)

2007-07-15T02:38:00.000+08:00

There's a Fine, Fine Line - Avenue Q

Kate Monster:
There's a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend;
There's a fine, fine line between reality and pretend;
And you never know 'til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb.

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

There's a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;
And there's a fine, fine line between "You're wonderful" and "Goodbye."
I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime,
But there's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of your time.

And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don't think that you even know what you're looking for.
For my own sanity, I've got to close the door
And walk away...
Oh...

There's a fine, fine line between together and not
And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime...

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

2007-07-08T02:00:00.000+08:00

back to my little obsession with this jay chou song.

周杰倫 -- 简单爱

说不上为什么
我变得很主动
若爱上一个人
什么都会值得去做
我想大声宣布
对你依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都猜到
我现在的感受

河边的风
在吹着头发飘动
牵着你的手
一阵莫名感动
我想带你
回我的外婆家
一起看着日落
一直到我们都睡着

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我想带你骑单车
我想和你看棒球
想这样没担忧
唱着歌一直走

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你靠着我的肩膀
你在我胸口睡着
像这样的生活
我爱你你爱我

2007-07-03T15:37:00.001+08:00

look what i found on youtube!

so so loving hk dramas. and it doesnt hurt to have cute actors. hahahaha

2007-06-30T04:24:00.000+08:00

i couldnt resist putting this up. i was just listening to it and it's so... heartbreaking!

also, the fan ti zi isnt too hard to read actually.

忘記傷害 - 林峰

當　這感覺未發生　不知道你光臨
我大概還可繼續散心
無奈我的心　不經意著了燈
為得不到的吸引　令我不糾纏亦不忍
當　他手放在你身
才想到我是好友永沒權利去傷感

忘記受過傷害　施捨最假的愛
也會令我肯相信這段感情避不開
忘記如何忍耐
但期待一夜之間醒過來
我和你便已如戀人熱愛

想　想一世待你好　不需要有出路
那是我唯一快樂其實期望未算高　不擁抱便跌倒
付出的都不苦惱　被愛的當然未知道
好　即使我未夠好
連哭一聲都不配你便提示我怎做

2007-06-29T00:04:00.000+08:00

i think. just forget about it already.

anyway, i am so proud of you ymw you are officially the smartest friend i've got. even better than all the dean listers over here. :)

2007-06-28T10:44:00.000+08:00

i've pretty much given up on blogging. it's too much effort.

anw. hard work does pay off. so. yayy! :D

THIS

2007-06-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

is good stuff! this is what the ralph lauren website says about it haha.

"The women's fragrance that evokes the timeless essence of falling in love. Discover the sensual essence of velvety woods, extravagant florals and seductive musk."

(check out the cute pink box.)

europe trip 23 may-23 june 2007

2007-06-24T13:58:00.000+08:00

so we went and we're back! paris, rome, florence, venice, vienna, prague, munich and london. i must say that it was a crazy one month, hanging out with these people.

of course, there were camwhore moments

and other interesting moments

we'll never forget xinrong's "leap of faith" moment (which got the rest of the guys all excited about trying too)

and these breathtaking views which were really quite amazing and beautiful. (my camera and photography skills suck, so these things actually look much better in real life)

oh! and thomas' strange dance at the bridge near neuschwanstein castle.

i might possibly miss hanging out with you guys 24/7; it was an interesting experience (in every possible sense of the word), with the disagreements, snores, weirdass habits and all. the shopping was great, if i might add!

and now it's back to singapore, time to catch up with the rest, and the Great Singapore Sale.

:) :) :)

2007-05-21T20:12:00.000+08:00

OMG timo just showed me some jamiroquai stuff and i must say they're really good! especially "virtual insanity". the piano rocks!

Virtual Insanity

Oh yeah, what we’re living in, let me tell ya
It is a wonder man can eat at all
When things are big that should be small
Who can tell what magic spells we’ll be doing for us
And I’m giving all my love to this world
Only to be told
I can’t see, I can’t breathe
No more will we be
And nothing’s going to change the way we live
’Cause we can always take but never give
And now that things are changing for the worse
See, whoa, it’s a crazy world we’re living in
And I just can’t see that half of us immersed in sin
Is all we have to give these

Futures made of virtual insanity now
Always seem to be governed by this love we have for
Useless, twisting, of the new technology
Oh now there is no sound, for we all live underground

And I’m thinking what a mess we’re in
Hard to know where to begin
If I could slip the sickly ties that earthly man has made
And now every mother can choose the colour of her child
That’s not nature’s way
Well that’s what they said yesterday
There’s nothing left to do but pray
I think it’s time I found a new religion
Whoa, It’s so insane
To synthesize another strain
There’s something in these
Futures that we have to be told

Futures made of virtual insanity now
Always seem to be governed by this love we have for
useless, twisting, of the new technology
Oh now there is no sound, for we all live underground

Now there is no sound if we all live underground
And now it's virtual insanity
Forget your virtual reality
Oh, there's nothing so bad
As a man-made man, oh yeah, I know yeah
Ooh

Futures made of virtual insanity now
Always seem to be governed by this love we have for
Useless, twisting, of the new technology
Oh now there is no sound, for we all live underground

Now this life that we live in
It's so wrong
Shout out the window
Do you know that
There is nothing worse than a man-made man
Still there's nothing worse than a foolish man, hey

Virtual insanity is what we're living in
Yeah, it is alright

2007-05-20T10:36:00.000+08:00

finally blogger can post pictures again! i did this really long ago. was fiddling with my mac and i realized mac does really cool stuff, doesnt it?

2007-05-20T05:31:00.000+08:00

quick question.

as a 19 year old girl (as most of you prob are. if you are a guy pretend to be a girl for 10sec)

would you pick this THING

over this dishy bloke?

i hope not.

but she did.

old news i know. but i've been out of touch with gossip in a while.

2007-05-15T01:05:00.000+08:00

i dont understand. not at all!

2007-05-11T16:28:00.000+08:00

something's wrong with blogger, cant post pictures! bah. will get them up when blogger fixes their problem :)

2007-05-06T18:05:00.000+08:00

i quite like this review on spiderman3. cos it's pretty much what i thought.

work is killing me ):

2007-05-05T14:20:00.000+08:00

Signal Fire - Snow Patrol

The perfect words never crossed my mind
'cause there was nothing in there but you
I felt every ounce of me screaming out
But the sound was trapped deep in me
All I wanted just sped right past me
While I was rooted fast to the earth
I could be stuck here for a thousand years
Without your arms to drag me out

There you are standing right in front of me (x2)
All this fear falls away to leave me naked
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety

No I won't wait forever (x2)

In the confusion and the aftermath
You are my signal fire
The only resolution and the only joy
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes

There you are standing right in front of me (x2)
All this fear falls away to leave me naked
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety

There you are standing right in front of me (x2)
All this fear falls away to leave me naked
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety

No I won't wait forever (x3)

----------------

went to watch spiderman 3 (FINALLY!) with sarabird yesterday :) i liked it! i thought this time round there was more emotional involvement, and it was very.. human. (even though spiderman is a superhero) and james franco is quite hot!

so i've been spending all my free time lazing around, sleeping early (in the morning) and waking up late, watching desperate housewives (it IS quite good!), gallivanting around town and shopping till i have to stop myself from stepping out of the house to prevent any further damage. (or else i'll have to starve to death in europe) and i must say that i'm quite enjoying this. although i dont think i could keep up with such a lifestyle for 4 months! (it can get quite boring really. and financially draining. but its a pleasant feeling to not be using my brains much.)

but you know what, i have a feeling that time is going to pass very very quickly. as is always the case.

such a stimulating supervision.

2007-04-27T02:25:00.000+08:00

today's anat super was so... weird. haha we've just started on the pelvis which of course opens up all sorts of awkward opporunities that are bound to arise when talking about nether regions.

yes we are still immature individuals.

supervisor says:
did you know 50% of the population have the inside of their body in contact with the outside environment? yes! females! *prepare to faint from utter grossness... here it comes...* if a girl goes water skiing and she feels tired and decides to put her bum down, then all the water will...

ok. actually i think it is TOO disgusting to put here. never mind. anw most ppl reading this are medics. so you already know what i'm going to say. but STILL! that was just so... 0.0 i can't believe he actually told us that story. bleahh

and to leave you with a little tidbit.
supervisor: what is a period?
me: shedding of the uterine lining
supervisor: oh i like to refer to it as... *wait for it*... the weeping of a disappointed uterus!

HAHAHA. it's really quite funny. but just so.. strange.

2007-04-26T01:44:00.000+08:00

neh neh. i feel like crap. i have slowly come to realise that i am stupid. and that i prob won't ever smell a first. heck what makes me think i'll even pass!!?

:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

shuching is my friend.

i want to hibernate. can someone please wake me up on 12 june? thanks

2007-04-21T11:52:00.000+08:00

so we went to wala yesterday night! the best turnout we've had so far :) and it was fun! EIC is damn good, and maybe i really should get down to learning the guitar. like, finally.

and they did 简单爱!!! love that song. i think i'll die if anyone sings it to me. (but only if it sounds good heh)

i've got so much time to do so many things now that pros are over (ALL over, hopefully) and i think i'm beginning to enjoy my holidays!! i've got a whole long list of things i want to do (ever since school started last year). read my books, pack my room, watch my dvds, play my piano, learn something new, hang out with friends, SETTLE EUROPE TRIP (hurhurhur) and so much more! i think, 4 months might not be enough. but 4 months sounds good anyway :)

life is good as long as we dont get any calls in the near future. or any shocks in a months' time.

and cambridge people, study hard!! you guys can do it, i know i have smart friends :)

2007-04-19T01:39:00.000+08:00

this hair is nice! but i dare not cut my hair. and it doesnt help that i just dyed my hair. help me think of something to do to my hair!

over over over!!!!!!!! it's time to slack. and hopefully nothing bad will happen in the following month.

my northern adventure...

2007-04-17T18:51:00.000+08:00

back after 5 days with kat. was quite the experience... so actually manchester isn't all that north. but they still call it that. tom stays in heald green like half an hour out of manchester city i think... kat stays in chorley:
so anw. we left on thurs morning. got there abt 3... just hung around manchester city. really not all that exciting. bits of it are really really ugly... tom calls them "toilet tiling buildings". haha but the area that got bombed by the ira is now quitee fancy looking. with all those modern glass buildings and all. one thing you learn is to walk down the centre of paths.... cos there's always poo down the sides. haha!
night was supposed to go to an indie club (kooks, kaiser chiefs etc etc) would have been very cool if not for the fact that i didn't have valid id! it's poooo being in the uk cos i didn't bring my ic or drivers lisence. so i can't get into certain pubs or buy alcohol. will have to bring next year i guess. thankfully everyone was tired so i wasn't a party pooper. we decided to drive to wilmslow (which is a very posh area apparently. all the celebrities stay there. didn't look THAT amazing to me. was expecting beverley hills. haha) went for a pub quiz there. failed spectacularly. haha then decided to play pool. which i am horrible at. cons can i please go practise in your house in summer??

fri took the train to chorley... then drove to rivington. it's a really lovely big nature park around a reservoir. sort of macritchie (is that spelt right. it looks weird) like. weather was amazinggg! haha there's like a bikers gathering around there as well so you see all these old men in leather trousers and big silver earrings everywhere. very strange. then because the weather was too hot and we all deserve a treat, kat took us to.. FREDERICKS which is like the biggest ice-cream parlour in chorley. GELATOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO 0.0 hahah was so so so yummy. i had cookies and cream and orange choc chip. amazing. the weather was so hot my ice-cream was melting much too quickly. bliss :)
then... at night we had a chippy tea (say chippeh tey) - fish and chips for dinner. haha which is supposedly typical of the north. heehee they come wrapped in newspapers which i haven't had since i was a baby living in liverpool (which of course i don't remember but so my mummy tells me). so yummy. so oily. so damn much! i left half my chips unfinished which i felt absolutely horrible for.
we watched deal or no deal (cruel concept but oh so addictive!), gladiators (doesn't everyone remember this!!!) cory (coronation street. a typical northern soap opera). hahha sooo days of our lives. there was this one character who had the worst accent ever. when he came on screen, i had no idea what he was talking about for the whole 5min. kat's family is always terribly amused by my response to northern accents. then watched the holiday (i haven't watched so much tv in agesss!!!) they loved it. i didn't. i'm just so not a romantic movie person. it was stupid!! and boring. kate winslet was quite endearing i suppose. but jack black. EWWWW. cameron diaz was the same character she's played in every movie i've watched. and jude law. ayee i'm considering giving up jude law now. he looked horrid in the movie! such orangey fake tan! bleah. and somehow not charming at all. what happened to alfie! heartbroken.

haha kat has 2 gorgeous gorgeous cats - holly and nina. so adorable. they will hop onto your lap when you're watching tv.. close their eyes and purrrrrrrr when you give stroke them, lick your fingers when you stop, give you puss-in-boots eyes and mew the most heartmelting mews you've ever heard. I WANT A CATTTTT.

sat went out to southport. the beach!! lots and lots and lots of beach. and no sea! i'm serious. the tide was so far out. hot hot hot day again. went for a chinese buffet. was quite amazing really! i was quite impressed and i ate a hell lot. then played crazy golf and got a tan. yayy i got a hole in one. and it was at one of those tricky holes where you have to putt it right into the clown's mouth or something. heehee. i came in second.
that night. we had the funniest funniest funniest experience. kat's bf jamie owns this music recording studio so he knows all these up and coming bands. and he suggested taking me out to see a gig in wigan that night. unfortunately. it was DEATH METAL. omg. hahahha there we were hanging out in the pub, amongst black-clad youth smoking god-knows-what, feeling impossibly out of place. and then the music. omg the music. i thought linkin park was bad. linkin park is feather light metal. haha! the first band i thought was ghastly but then when the second band came on, i decided the first band was decent. haaha it was just like:
RAAAAAAAAAWWWWRRRR... YOU DIE YOU DIE RAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWRRRRR
RRRRAAAAWWWWRRR
funnily enough, nobody was really moshing. everyone was kind of just standing around. and i felt really bad for the band cos they were putting like so much into their performance and the audience was just standing there. it got a bit better for the second band. *growl* acral necrosis (no medics would be able to take that seriously. haha) the lead singer had to growl cos apparently he's got a really posh accent and so would not go down well with the northern folk. hahha they were a terrible band. everyone had really really long hair.. (band of cousin its) and they'd have their heads down playing the guitar like there's no tmr. so funny cos then you'd just see like shaggy hair and a guitar. and then after like 2min they would flip their hair (charlie's angels style) prob so that it didn't get caught in guitar strings. haha basically their performance was RAWWWRRR hair hair hair FLIP RAWWWWRRR hair hair hair flip. and then. the most amazing one in my opinion, the guitarist started swinging his head around so his hair flew out like a gigantic fan. omg. hahha and there was this one solo guy moshing in the audience and he was doing that too. for the greater part of the song. so funny. kat and i were laughing so hard. we decided to leave after the 2 bands cos apparently the next one was even heavier and the final one was the biggest death metal band in the north. no thank you. jamie intro-ed us to the band (see like how cool is it to be involved in the music industry?) and when they asked what we thought of the music, we said "horrible" and they looked very pleased with themselves. hahaha! then went to hang out in jamie's house. he and his brother are in a band and thank god the music they play is soo much better. his brother's got an amazing voice and the songs i've heard are really really good. so they've got my support! actually anything sounds good after death metal.

sunday went out to chester (old roman town) which really is nothing now that we've been to rome. haha they had the CIAK CIAK mann in that town! alex and i just looked at each other when we heard it and burst out laughing. was another glorious sunny day.. took a tour on the open top bus and then had a nice picnic lunch... didn't really do much that day just kind of walked around and then sat on benches and laughed at horny pigeons and obscenely fat ppl. was a good day :) her family took me out to p&p's for dinner that night. lovelyy. dime bar cheesecake to DIE FOR. x_X haha
that night we watched peter kay. who's a northern stand up comedian. as always, they wanted to see how i'd react to northern humour. hahha some bits were quite funny! other times it was just too tiring to follow his bolton accent. haha

so then the next day jamie drove us down to manchester and we went back to cam. and that was it! was awesome :)

omg i just realised how much i wrote. haha. photos to come soon hopefully.

2007-04-15T17:20:00.000+08:00

bird is having a major panic attack now. and i am NOT panicking cos "i only went through the syllabus ONCE!!!!!! -cryandwhine-".

but i have VERY GOOD REASONS to freak the shit out!

we will survive.
we will survive.
we will survive.
we will survive.
we will survive.
we will survive.
we will survive.

all the best friends.

2007-04-10T00:01:00.000+08:00

cons says:
hahaha...
cons says:
koreans have the ugliest good looking people in asia
ying says:
spore lehhh??
ying says:
oh.
ying says:
we don't even have good-looking ppl
ying says:
): ):
cons says:
yar
cons says:
we are disqualified

depressing :(

~dishy asian blokes are hard to find,
but
THERE IS STILL HOPE!

2007-04-09T05:27:00.000+08:00

how much have we missed bizarro since uni started????
awwwwww.
and for the medic (ok fine. surgeon) in all of us!

2007-04-06T00:12:00.000+08:00

yay! my dad is back and he bought DVDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 18 april 18 april 18 april. and hopefully it'll all REALLY end on 18 april.

meanwhile, study hard friends. :)

HAHA

2007-03-31T22:58:00.000+08:00

my embryology supervision report:

"Ying Mei made copious notes and seems on top of the subject, though she didn't say a lot. She made one or two very perceptive remarks."

HAHAHAHAHA
actually, i was the only one in the supervision who didn't make notes. because the first time i tried to copy his drawings, they looked like poo and i still didn't understand anything.

i don't think i even made any remark during supervisions. perceptive or not!

most definitely NOT on top of the subject, mr dean!

2007-03-29T03:44:00.000+08:00

tried out this THING that jon recommended.

funny the hypothesis was wrong for me as well. i picked mostly extroverts. hmmm.

Drops of Jupiter - Train

2007-03-28T00:43:00.000+08:00

i really really LOVE these lyrics. as jon said, the metaphors are amazing. and no, the wind hasnt swept me off my feet yet.

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's time to change
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's room to grow
Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain ol' Jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the Milky Way