just when i thought i was going to get over this, they just HAD to remind me. and so i read the stuff they sent. needless to say, i'm sad all over again. i dont think anyone will ever understand (except mich..) unless they were in a similar unfortunate situation.

no i am not regretting my decision and i will not. but i dont think i can get over it. no i cant.

off to church camp.