i've lost the motivation to mug, somehow. i dont know if it's because of the unattractiveness of the mugging content itself, or if it's just me and my laziness. i cant even imagine how i survived A levels, but i suspect i must've been more of a muggertoad then. and the desire to want to do well has disappeared since med school started. most of the time i'd just tell myself that i just need to study enough to pass. and i am actually HAPPY to just make the mark. while everyone else is working so so hard because they want to do well. oh sigh. i am destined for a life of mediocrity!

and guess what, i dont even feel sad saying that..!

argh!!

(and i cant even be bothered to get a new flooble chatbox thingy. it just died on us, that silly thing.)


why then, am i still holding on? because i choose to. and i want to. because, i want to believe that the result will be worth it.