help!!

howw. howwwwww. howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. HOW?!?!?!?!!!!!!!! i think sukuen and i just successfully confused each other further!

singapore. nus. ugly building. (yes this really matters to me cos i cant stand the fact that it is SO UGLY! they should like revamp the whole place. seriously. add more colour, more flowers. nicer people. or maybe just transport the whole university over to london. oh it would be perfect!) cheaper. no homesickness. doing sth i possibly might like.

overseas. FREE OMG FREE!!!! doing sth i possibly might not like.

so yes. common advice would be to do something i like. and i agree. but. i still feel so heartpain. like letting go of this once in a lifetime chance to experience life out of this place. i'm quite sure i'll never get such a chance again. but i dont want to end up selling my life away and doing something i'll hate for the rest of my life. yes it's not worth it to sign my life away for 4 years overseas. but... the irrational side of me will always surface. overseas, free, for goodness' sake. isnt this what i've always been dreaming of. but it's not what i really want. arghhhhhh. i'm driving myself nuts trying to think abt this day and night. and i dont get anywhere. :(

on a happier note, i'm going to ymw's house with shuching tmr!!! woohooo. i can learn how to play the drums! it'll be fun. :) heh. and ymw's got new weird friends. hee hee hee. (i always felt that 'hee hee hee' is such a sadistic laugh. HAHA) yay yay yayyyyy. no more staying at home having a blocked nose and sore throat! ok the blocked nose is still not gone but no more staying at home!! maybe i should find stuff to do ah. eh but my brain's completely occupied with electrical and electronic engineering now. i think i might even dream of it. YUCK.



yucky. i cant believe that people actually think he's hot! hahah oh well. i have unique taste. :)