Saturday, November 17, 2007

"Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real."

"Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit.

"Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real you don't mind being hurt."

"Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit by bit?"

"It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in your joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."


- The Velveteen Rabbit


i've had my current desktop wallpaper for about 2 months already. it's nowhere near the pretty beautiful soothing scenery kind, but it's real. i think, and i hope. and i dont intend to change it anytime soon.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

interestingly, i actually ate 2 servings of vegetables today.





i hate school. i hate mugging.

Sunday, November 11, 2007

i've lost the motivation to mug, somehow. i dont know if it's because of the unattractiveness of the mugging content itself, or if it's just me and my laziness. i cant even imagine how i survived A levels, but i suspect i must've been more of a muggertoad then. and the desire to want to do well has disappeared since med school started. most of the time i'd just tell myself that i just need to study enough to pass. and i am actually HAPPY to just make the mark. while everyone else is working so so hard because they want to do well. oh sigh. i am destined for a life of mediocrity!

and guess what, i dont even feel sad saying that..!

argh!!

(and i cant even be bothered to get a new flooble chatbox thingy. it just died on us, that silly thing.)


why then, am i still holding on? because i choose to. and i want to. because, i want to believe that the result will be worth it.

Saturday, November 10, 2007

i finally got the jay chou cd! it's not bad really, though it's quite evident that he has become more mainstream. lost his style la. there's no more "this is a jay chou song" kind of feeling on first listen. but they do sound better after a few listens. i still like!

我不配 - 周杰倫



这街上太拥挤 太多人有秘密 玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪 在还原那场雨 这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿 又斑驳了几句 剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅 隔遥远的距离 感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你 你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉 已经不对 我努力在挽回
一些些 应该体贴的感觉 我没给
你嘟嘴 许的愿望很卑微 在妥协
是我忽略 你不过要人陪

这感觉 已经不对 我最后才了解
一页页 不忍翻阅的情节 你好累
你默背 为我掉过几次泪 多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪 你的美 我不配


The Way I Am - Ingrid Michaelson



If you were falling, then I would catch you
You need a light, I'd find a match

Cos I love the way you say good morning
And you take me the way I am

If you are chilly, here take my sweater
Your head is aching, I'll make it better

Cos I love the way you call me baby
And you take me the way I am

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair
Sew on patches to all you tear

Cos I love you more than I could ever promise
And you take me the way I am
You take me the way I am
You take me the way I am